i don’t know what it is about the weekends, but they seem to throw a monkeywrench into my plans every time. it’s like i am taking three steps forward, and then two back. for instance, this is what i ate on sunday: pancakes, turkey bacon, strawberries,pringles, cheesey noodles, peanut butter and honey sandwhich, pizza lunchable, peanutbutter and banana sandwhich, popcorn, and who knows how many handfuls of chcolate chips. not to mention about a dozen jello shots during the super bowl. i’d divide it into meals, but really, there are no meals, just snacking throughout the day. it’s disgusting. i will say that i felt so bad about my out of control eating that i did get on the elliptical machine for 90 minutes. that makes everything ok…right? oh well, monday is off to a good start. oatmeal and peaches for breakfast. banana and peanut butter for a snack. probably have some soup for lunch. grapes and cheese cubes for an afternoon snack. and then dinner is TBA. dinner is always tough. it’s hard to eat healthy when you have a three years old sitting next to you shoveling in macaroni and cheese and a cheeseburger. i’d try to force him to eat healthier, but he’d probably waste away if i tried that. whenever i try to get him to eat a bite of my veggies he’ll say, “i don’t like green beans. only adults like green beans. i’ll eat it when i’m older.” well…hard to argue with that. anyone have any ideas on how to make kids eat more healthy? i can’t wait until it’s warmer. i want to be able to go for a walk on my lunch break. i used to do that all the time. now i’m cooped up in an office all day. boo. i swear having an office job attributed to my weight gain. kickboxing tonight :) i always start out feeling like a slug, but by the end of the class, i feel like rocky. sometimes i’ll have so much energy i’ll go home and get on the elliptical machine after class. i think quitting smoking has helped with that. today is day 6 sans cigarettes. i feel soooo good. i can’t even begin to relay how great it feels not to smoke! I LOVE IT! i used to have to use my inhaler everyday. before kickboxing class, i’d puff, during kickboxing i’d have to take various puffs, but i still was struggling to breathe. less than a week of kicking the nasty habit, and i don’t have to use my inhaler AT ALL and i can breathe better than when i was using it. amazing, right? i still have cravings. i still miss smoking (forgive me). but i feel so great, i don’t think i could turn back.

GOALS FOR THIS WEEK:

1. Lose 2 lbs.

2. Exercise at least 5 days this week.

3. Forgive myself when I make mistakes.

4. Be more focused at work!! I haven’t been doing shit!