ugh. scale says 151. i feel so gross. i wish i weighed 129 still. even then i thought i needed to loose 10-20 more pounds. why can’t i ever be satisfied? oh well. kickboxing tonight. :) i may not be skinny, but i am getting stronger. i used to not be able to do more than 2 pushups in a row, now i can do 20. holla back!

i finally got fed up. i was on my way back to work from my lunch break and realized i only had one cigarette. i guess this is it? i guess so. i haven’t had one since. i’ve never lasted this long in between smokes before. ha. it’s only been 20 hours. one day at a time, i suppose.

goals for this week:

1. exercise at LEAST 4 days for an hour.

2. be good on the weekends, no pigging out just because it’s saturday, ok?

3. relax. there’s always tomorrow.