April 2010
2 posts
also…i’m stressing out. my period is 10 days late. i did spot for one day. i’ve taken 3 pregnancy tests. all negative. sounds good, except i’ve been given false hope. where the HECK is my period? what is going on? i’m tired of worrying about this. i googled the problem and i found a site talking about how sometimes if you’re under stress you’ll skip a...
let me be completely honest.
oatmeal w/tablespoon of sugar
fresh pineapple
iceburg lettuce wedge
loaded baked potato
snickers bar
trail mix (seems healthy, but not.)
cup of grapes
1/2 slice of cake
i feel like i’m playing that game…which does not belong? i plan on eating healthy, but am always thrown curve balls. i need to build up my will power.
March 2010
12 posts
sasstacular asked: Oooh have fun! Yeah I am meeting a guy after work before I leave to go see my family so I also have the time crunch which is perfect. This is the guy who wanted to see pictures of my body. Gah. We will see how it goes. I am kind of doing it just to get it over with ahahah. I can't help but feel a little insecure because hes mentioned multiple times that he wants a girl with a good body but I...
i DID go to kickboxing last night and it felt fucking marvelous. i’m sore today, but a good kind of sore. i got up this morning and watched trashy reality tv while on the elliptical for 42 minutes. i walked three miles while on my lunch break. i had a turkey sandwich and pineapple for lunch. i defeated the chocolate cravings with a piece of sugar free gum. i haven’t been on the...
It’s been three weeks since I’ve been to a kickboxing class. I freaking suck. I miss it. If I go tonight,when I go tonight, I will feel better. It will fill that void I’ve been feeling and all will be right with the world again. I’ve also quit getting up in the mornings and exercising. I don’t know why. I’m just always so tired. I’ve lost motivation. But...
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i am the lamest person ever. i suck at following through on things. i ate shit yesterday. i could go on and on about the negatives, but i will try to keep things positive.
+i’ve started walking on my lunch breaks, which equals a 3 mile walk. that’s, good, right?
yeah. that’s about the only positive. oh well. must keep going. i am so sick of being in the 150s. i used to be in...
i’ve had a horrible week. i won’t go into details. it disgusts me. but new week. i can do it. kickboxing tonight. it’ll make me feel better. :)
February 2010
18 posts
i swear!!! i want to throw that scale against a freakin’ wall! i guess it’s good that i didn’t gain…but really? one fifty freaking one again. am i ever going to see the 140s again? EVER?!!?!?! I think my problem is that i don’t eat enough, honestly, and it was hard for me to be that honest with myself. on the days that i’m “good” i’ll work out...
god damn you, mother. just because you don’t have to work today due to snow and you want me to have lunch with you when you KNOW that i am trying to stick to a particular diet (i hate thinking of diet as being restricted food, but a diet is what you eat,so…that’s what i call my food) and then you tell me it’s fat tuesday..and well…..somehow i find myself in a...
so temporarily…like a week or so…i am trying to cut out sugar, dairy, and bread. just to see how it goes. call it a kickstart? since the first of the year, i have been making an effort to at least be aware of all the decisions i am making health wise. instead of just shoveling food into my mouth, i’ve been thinking, “i shouldn’t be doing this. i shouldn’t be...
we’ll see what happens today…hopefully some good eating. I was pretty good yesterday, except for dinner. I had dinner plans with the bff. we had decided on a place and I knew what I was going to have..grilled lemon pepper chicken and veggies, but no. the wait time was 45 minutes, wtf? we tried THREE other places until we landed at mr. gattis. terrible, right? I’m a whore for...
some asshole put a kingsize peanut butter twix in the office fridge. the only reason i’m not eating it right now is because it’s not mine. but it just makes me want chocolate…and i’m PMSing, which leads me to my next point..FUCK PMSing. I hate being bloated and overemotional. I cried for 20 minutes on my way to work, why? I have no idea. On the up side, however, i have...
i just told the boy that i love, well, that i love him and i miss him. i’m scared. what if he doesn’t love and miss me back? oh well. wouldn’t be the first one, probably won’t be the last one.
i don’t know what it is about the weekends, but they seem to throw a monkeywrench into my plans every time. it’s like i am taking three steps forward, and then two back. for instance, this is what i ate on sunday: pancakes, turkey bacon, strawberries,pringles, cheesey noodles, peanut butter and honey sandwhich, pizza lunchable, peanutbutter and banana sandwhich, popcorn, and who knows...
i had a fruit salad for breakfast. delish. fruit is nature’s candy. :)
almost 48 cigarette free. i can’t believe i’m doing this. i can’t believe i’m doing this. but you know what? i don’t hate it.
in approximately one hour, i will be paying a gynecologist $300 to stick a microscope up my lady bits to see what’s going on with my abnormal pap. i’m...
ugh. scale says 151. i feel so gross. i wish i weighed 129 still. even then i thought i needed to loose 10-20 more pounds. why can’t i ever be satisfied? oh well. kickboxing tonight. :) i may not be skinny, but i am getting stronger. i used to not be able to do more than 2 pushups in a row, now i can do 20. holla back!
i finally got fed up. i was on my way back to work from my lunch break...