also…i’m stressing out. my period is 10 days late. i did spot for one day. i’ve taken 3 pregnancy tests. all negative. sounds good, except i’ve been given false hope. where the HECK is my period? what is going on? i’m tired of worrying about this. i googled the problem and i found a site talking about how sometimes if you’re under stress you’ll skip a period, yadda yadda, if you’ve recently come off birth control (which i stopped taking it in february) your period can be irregular for a while..yadda yadda yadda. however, then i stumbled on a website where women were talking about how they just KNEW they were pregnant and it didn’t show up until the 8th test they took (WTF?! are they rich!?! those tests are expensive!!) or how it wasn’t registering until they were 3 months pregnant. wtf?!?!?!?!?
let me be completely honest.
oatmeal w/tablespoon of sugar
fresh pineapple
iceburg lettuce wedge
loaded baked potato
snickers bar
trail mix (seems healthy, but not.)
cup of grapes
1/2 slice of cake
i feel like i’m playing that game…which does not belong? i plan on eating healthy, but am always thrown curve balls. i need to build up my will power.
Let me know how your walk goes! Have fun!
It was fun. We’re doing it again next week. He wasn’t as cute as he was online and he’s kinda short, but it’s not necessarily a deal breaker. I didn’t feel any fireworks, but I can always use a new friend. He seemed cool. Any guy that messages me or has it mentioned his profile about “hot bodies” or what have you, I am instantly turned off. It’s just so shallow. And even though I only have 20 lbs. that I want to lose before I am at my goal weight, I’d be so self aware all the time. I dated this guy briefly about two years ago. We went hiking and then want to CiCi’s (a pizza buffet) to eat. I LOVE pizza. It’s my favorite food, so I loaded up my plate. He looked at me with a disgusted face and said, “do you know how many carbs you’re eating right now?” I replied, “do you know how much I fucking care right now?” as I ate my pizza. Really, dude? I just hiked up a damn hill, I NEED NUTRITION! I want someone that enjoys doing active things, walking, jogging, hiking, and whatnot so we could do it together, but I don’t need someone who’s going to judge me. Sorry..went off on a tangent, a bit. Good luck with your meeting!
i DID go to kickboxing last night and it felt fucking marvelous. i’m sore today, but a good kind of sore. i got up this morning and watched trashy reality tv while on the elliptical for 42 minutes. i walked three miles while on my lunch break. i had a turkey sandwich and pineapple for lunch. i defeated the chocolate cravings with a piece of sugar free gum. i haven’t been on the elevator in over a week. heelllooo stairs! fuck me. i’m on a damn roll!
*bonus points for everything i just said being positive, not negative.
It’s been three weeks since I’ve been to a kickboxing class. I freaking suck. I miss it. If I go tonight,when I go tonight, I will feel better. It will fill that void I’ve been feeling and all will be right with the world again. I’ve also quit getting up in the mornings and exercising. I don’t know why. I’m just always so tired. I’ve lost motivation. But it’s monday. Every day can be a fresh start.
Goals:
1. Eat more good than bad this week.
2. Go for a walk every day on my lunch break.
3. Track my food on livestrong.com.
4. Attend kickboxing EVERY DAY.
5. Walk up the stairs.
I did two and five everyday last week. Walking on my lunch break feels great. I can cover about three miles. I’m less tired during the second part of the day and it reduces my lunch appetite. And, I just love to be outside. I’ve also been walking up the stairs to my office instead of using the elevator. It’s 121 steps to the sixth floor. And i go up them at least twice a day. My legs are getting toned ;). I think..anyways. Oh well. Starting fresh. Giving it another go. Here’s to seeing some progress.
